Consistency

I'm noticing a bad habit. I only post when a) I'm getting ready to meet a guy or b) when it doesn't work out. And guess what? I think it's time to post again. At least I'm consistent. I've played the "I'll call you later" roulette so many times that I'm getting dizzy. Why do guys do that??? Can someone--anyone--tell me? If you're not going to call, just say so! The not knowing is what kills me. I'm still clinging to hope that he'll contact me, but that hope is slipping further away. And honestly I wonder if I really want him to call now.

I've been praying about this since we met, that if he was the one chosen for me that everything would work out. It's been long enough that I was beginning to hope that this time God had answered my prayers. Sometimes I wonder if he ever will. Am I destined to live alone forever?